HURT PEOPLE,HURT PEOPLE

Have you ever felt unworthy? Have you ever felt like you just can never measure up? Have you ever felt invisible?Have you ever had them worship the other one and despise you? You tell certain people and they say its a lie from the devil. That is so hard to accept when you feel it so deep down inside,when the people who are supposed to love you unconditionally make you feel worthless everyday.When you can't move forward because the past is constantly being thrown up in your face. First they hurt you until your old enough to defend yourself then you fight back. Then they hurt you more because "don't you dare stand up to me and don't you dare tell anyone". When you do your labeled a liar as a way to protect "our good name".You run away but they make you go back. You hurt yourself in return trying to hide from the pain inside. Going to any measure to feel numb inside because it hurts to be alive.You cut and burn yourself to get the inward pain out because that pain stops.That pain you can deal with.You swallow a bottle of pills one day certain that this will end it all and someone finds you in time to pump your stomach contents into the toilet and force you to live another day. You hurt them back,you hurt others,and anyone else who gets in your way.Now you really are worthless, now it is all true, now you have made it true.
You are addicted for years,homeless,helpless and unwanted.You become jailed and institutionalized.You have hit bottom.No one wants you.No one cares.You reach out to God because he is the only one who can save you,but you fall over and over again. You can't understand that love,you can't believe it's real. You still hurt inside so bad. "You want to scream somebody please help me." "I can't live like this anymore." You know you can't die because a new generation has been effected by you and your pain as my pain has been a direct result of someone else's pain. Thats why hurt people hurt people, not because they want to cause others pain but because they hurt too._________________TO BE CONTINUED...............